Monday, January 4, 2010

Arise from the Wreckage

Read this devotional and wanted to share it. Enjoy!!


29 Dec 2009

Micca Monda Campbell

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose" Romans 8:28 (KJV)

Recently I had an ah-ha moment as I was reading Acts 9. At first, the familiar story seemed dull. You know how it is when you've read or heard the same story over and over. Then a new revelation merged from the content. In my minds-eye I began to see the word "rejection," although it was not in written form. Perhaps I saw what I was feeling that day—rejected.

I was at the part of the story where Saul, a murderer, had just been transformed into Paul, a disciple of Christ. Even though Paul was a changed person, many rejected him because of his past reputation as a murderer. This was only the beginning of Paul's trouble. Throughout his ministry, Paul not only experienced rejection, but great suffering and harassment too. For a changed man, his adversity seemed unfair.

Paul was devoted to serving Christ. He sacrificed his education, his life, and remained single so he could better serve the Lord. And yet, he was shipwrecked on several occasions, falsely accused, and thrown into prison more than once. Doesn't that seem odd for a man called of God? Wouldn't God's favor protect him from such adversity?

I thought about an illness that lingered with me all summer. It was so severe I was all but bed-ridden for months, unable to do life and ministry. I began to feel rejected by God. It didn't make sense. I was serving God in more ways than I could count. Then, without warning, strong winds blew in. Clouds hung overhead and it began to storm. Before I knew it I was "shipwrecked." You've been there, too.

Some of us have been rejected by family, friends, and co-workers. Others have been falsely accused. Some are imprisoned by finances, or blown around by the consequences of someone else's sin. It seems so unfair. You've tried to live right. You walk in obedience the best you can. You take God at His Word and trust in His promises. Shouldn't faith like this call for smooth sailing, instead of stormy, shipwrecking seas?

Isaiah reminds us that God's ways are not our ways. His thoughts and plans are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8; paraphrased). It's tough to figure God out when He doesn't play by our rules or have the same agenda we have. We forget that God sees a much bigger picture.

If we follow Paul's journey, we find God working through the rejection, the trials, the prison time, and the shipwrecks. God used these hardships to position Paul. Not for fame, but to increase the Kingdom of God. Paul witnessed to the Pharisees through his rejection and imprisonment. People saw God's power at work when Paul survived the st orms, when the snake bite didn't kill him, and when the jail shook, opening the doors and loosing chains. The Lord used these difficulties so others would witness His power and believe.

Paul allowed God to use him as a vessel. He didn't sit on the sidelines, full of self-pity and doubt. Instead, as Acts 16:22-31 tells us, after being stripped, beaten, severely flogged, thrown in the inner cell of a prison and his feet in stocks, Paul prayed and sang hymns to God. Others around him were listening. The power of God came in such a way, that the prison guard begged Paul to tell him, "What must I do to be saved?" He replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus" (NIV).

God doesn't waste our pain, our rejection or our "shipwrecks." He uses them to bring about His plan—to position us so that others can see His transforming power at work in our lives and believe in the living God.

If that's true, and it is, then our challenge is to rise from the wreckage, like Paul, so tha t our lives will give testimony that draws others to the Master. Today I will no longer sit on the sidelines of life full of self-pity. I choose to rise, pray and praise, so that God can position me to shine for His glory, and so that others will believe.

Dear Lord, forgive me for wallowing in self-pity and rejection. I trust that You see the bigger picture. I believe there is a purpose for my pain. Strengthen me to rise from my ashes so that others will see You are my help and my salvation. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Lucas Arthur

The two things that I blog about the most are LUCAS and GOD.
Lucas turned 1 on the 23rd of December and I had this plan to blog all about my little boy but the holidays and work and life got the best of me.
But I haven't forgotten.
Lucas is the best little boy I could ever wish or dream of having. I could go on and on and will later in this blog about how wonderful he is.
Lucas is one of the reasons that I am ok right now. Life has dealt me some ugly cards this last year and I know if not for the responsibility that I carry as Lucas' mama I would have turned and chosen a destructive path. But having Lucas has brought me joy and the realization that I can't make it about me. So I have chosen not to. I think I have done pretty good so far but hope to grow into a better mama as time goes on. I pray for patience and grace everyday.

About Lucas.
I can't even believe he is 1. It feels just like yesterday that I was being induced, going through the pains of contractions, anticipating my first glance into his eyes.
And then we faced a very hard ten days after Lucas was born as we waited in the hospital until his little lungs were fully developed and he could breathe on his own.
What a hard and helpless feeling it was not holding my baby in my arms, not being able to nurse him or for that matter take him home. It pained me to know he had to go through that.
But a strong little bugger I have.
Lucas is an active little guy full of love. He is the most friendly and outgoing baby I have ever been around. His big blue eyes and sweet smile make even the hardest tough guy melt.
He gives big hugs and every now and then you get a wet open mouth kiss. He likes to crawl up the stairs and even since falling still ventures over to give it a try.
He is a good sleeper, always has been. He says dada, mama, and uh o. He likes eating french fries, chicken, mandarin oranges, lots of water, cherrios, beans... the list actually goes on and on. He's a great eater. Even though he is small he is an active little boy on the go non stop.
He loves (loves loves) baby einstein. He learned how to clap by watching the babies on the video clap. He's so cute.
He plays really well by himself, but does better with other kids around. You can tell that Lucas has a tender which I love. We just got him a big boy car seat which makes riding in the car more fun. Seeing his little poker face is hysterical.
Don't get me wrong there are days that he can wine and fuss and drive me crazy. It's not easy being a parent. But it will be worth it. I know it.
Celebrating Lucas was so much fun. We had a few close friends over, sang to him, ate pizza, devoured cake, and open gifts. It was so fun. Here are some pictures from that night.
I am so excited for this year and all the changes and challenges that we face. Being a mom just gets better as your child gets older and more aware of life. I hope I can be a great mama to Lucas and want him to truly have a great life and be the man of God that he is destined to become.













Thursday, December 17, 2009

Here it is Y'ALL




God speaks to me ALOT through music and man oh man did HE SPEAK to me TODAY! I LOVE IT! This song came on and God was saying step out on the water ADRIENNE. Have I failed you yet?! And no. Honestly I can say God has never failed. Yes people have failed me. People have hurt me. But God never changes. And that's why I am so joyful and excited about life. It doesn't mean I'm not scared or have huge obstacles to face. But I think God was waiting for me to step out. I think about Peter:

"After feeding the five thousand, Jesus sends his disciples ahead of him in a boat to cross the Sea of Galilee. Several hours later in the night, the disciples encounter a storm. Jesus comes to them, walking on the water. This terrifies the disciples and they think they are seeing a ghost. Jesus tells them in verse 27, "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."

Peter replies, "Lord, if it's you, tell me to come to you on the water." So Jesus invites Peter to come. Peter gets out of the boat and begins walking on the water toward Jesus. But when Peter takes his eyes off Jesus and sees the wind and waves, he begins to sink. Peter cries out to the Lord and Jesus immediately reaches out his hand and catches Peter. As they climb into the boat together, the storm ceases. Then the disciples worship Jesus, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."

First off isn't it amazing that Jesus had just preformed the miracle of feeding 5 thousand and then hours later when the disciples faced a storm and saw Jesus walking on the water they were afraid. How many miracles does God preform daily in our lives and yet when the storm comes we are afraid! I mean I guess I would kinda freak if some person was walking on top of ocean and not sinking into the water.
The next part is beautiful. I love Peter. He so wants to follow Jesus and live a radical life. Peter is so brave to step out into the water, but as soon as he sees the wind and waves and takes his eyes off Jesus he sinks. Gosh do I feel like this right now in my walk. What a glorious picture of Jesus reaching out his hand to Peter. He doesn't let him sink! Let me say that again... HE DOESN'T LET HIM SINK.
Here is our encouragement. There are going to be storms-waves-wind and God asks us to trust Him.. to step out, to keep our eyes on Him. And you know what... God is not going to let go of us if we start sinking. Amen my friends? :)


Listen to this song and let Jesus remind you of what you are destined to do and that He will never let you go.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Failure and Forgiven

Some days, like today, I feel this weight of being a failure. How did I get to this point? Why am I here? Why is everything so hard. I just want to crawl in a hole and not be seen. Have I even disappointed God? Someone said to me recently that I care too much of what people think of me. Where is that fine line when you live your life for an audience of one and when you admire and respect a person so highly that you wouldn't want to ever hurt or offend them? If you have a strong enough bond or affection, would there really be anything that would separate you?
Since I have been in Virginia, God keeps taking me to Romans 8:38-39. NOTHING can separate me from the Love of God... That's what He says to me. So I guess I'm set in Him. But what about others. Human love is so conditional and as much as I wish it weren't so I can be the same way. It's hard not to be hurt by choices people make or things they say and want to distance yourself from them completely, as not to be hurt again. But God sets such a great example for us, when again and again we sin against Him, He loves and excepts us as we are. Not only that but He desires good for us... a hope and a future.
I am forgiven. And I know that the Bible talks about forgiving your brother. I am walking forgiveness out in many areas of my life. And it's interesting because it's teaching me so much about the cross and the price Jesus paid for us. I think I posted this previously but I was given this illumination about the forgiveness of God. When Jesus died on the cross He took on the judgment of God. That judgment that was on us was turned to Jesus... His only son whom He loved. He was punished for what WE did as a human race. So we as a people need to walk in that freedom. Many Christians are bound but Christ wants us to be free!! For years I have just felt judged by God and have felt like a failure before Him. But God is entering me into a new revelation of who He is. It's so basic but it seems like we loose sight of such a powerful truth. The message of Christianity. GOD came TO EARTH... TO DIE. FOR US! We have so much to grateful for.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

My Son

Little Lucas is almost one and I can't even believe it.

Time has flown by.

He keeps me busy. I've been at my moms house this week and she has stairs leading up to the room Lucas sleeps in and he always crawls up the stairs and scurries to his room or his aunties room to get into things.
Today he flew off the bed and didn't even cry. He goes non stop and is a typical little boy.

God spoke to me about my son one day.
Have you ever read Wild at Heart? Well God showed me a glimpse of that adventurous spirit that Lucas has. Brave, courageous, unstoppable.
It's amazing that at such a young age you can already see the perfect design of God in a person.
Lucas has a calling to be a light and boy does he shine.
He is destined for great things and to follow God.

In the meantime....

He runs me all over the place.

;)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

i love these words.

We are His portion and He is our prize, Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes, If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking. So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss, And my heart turns violently inside of my chest, I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, When I think about, the way… He loves us

Thursday, December 3, 2009

You found me.



I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
[ The Fray Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

A friend of mine shared this video with me and it spoke to me. My thoughts are this: man do we misunderstand God. I being one of them. If only we really knew God's heart and the dept of His love, understanding, and grace. If I get anything from my time on earth I want to fathom God's love and extend that understanding to the people I come in contact with.
I fail.
I know what I'm sharing is not completely related to this video. But I have two thoughts roaming my mind right now. One being that I can so relate to feeling alone and forgotten and even left by God. And He has been reminding me that he has always been there. Never left and will never leave. And I love that about God. Truly.
Second... I am dumb founded by the way people represent God and I am humbled to repentance about how I have judged people. At the cross Jesus said that it was finished. He was the lamb that was crucified. God judged the world and Jesus took that judgment until death.


Just some thoughts.